I Removed My Now Page

25 Feb, 2026

My updates stopped last October.

I feel that my present is no longer the present.

My now may have already become the past.

Or perhaps I don’t need to explain it.

This is my boundary with the present.

In the past,

my now was many people’s now.

But it wasn’t only mine.

I got lost in other people’s present,

and couldn’t even tell whose now it was.

So now, I want to remove my now page — a page that promotes the present — to express how I think about “now.”

At this very moment, I am digesting all the emotions I cannot explain.

I am lying on the bed in the opposite direction,

my arms forming the shape of nine o’clock.

I am listening to my favorite music, staring at the ceiling.

I can no longer move.

now I’m thinking about how to express the idea of now

now I want to be an artist, a dancer, a writer, and a gamer

now I want to look in the mirror

now I’m opening the curtain

now I don’t want to be better

now

only now am I truly reading a book

now I won’t easily share what I like

now I am finally writing this down

I wonder where you are now